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I began to experience major clinical depression in December, 1995. The depression lasted until November, 1996, when I started using Prozac.

One of the worst parts of the depression was how it affected my job, as these posts describe:

A big part of the depression was self-loathing:

I often turned to writing as relief during the very worst depression attacks:

A very frightening time during the depression came when I was suicidal, and turned myself into the hospital to avoid dying. I wrote a lot about the first such experience:

Nor is it entirely gone even now. I still get relapses:

And yet, on occasion, there are breakthroughs and moments of happiness: